andiwontletgo:

I wish I was strong enough to walk away. I know he’d be so much happier without me but I can’t let him go.. I completely suck

Sitting on my ex boyfriends bed crying because my life has literally gone to shit. There is no point to living anymore.. Seriously.

I don’t know if it would be worse for me to just give up on him completely or keep trying. If I give up, I’ll lose the only person I ever truly loved and needed. And if I keep trying I’ll have to sit back and watch that person find someone else to love.

I fucking hate myself.

It’s not that I don’t love you, because I do. It’s not that I don’t want to be with you, because I definitely do. The problem is, I’m not used to being treated the way I’m supposed to be and I’m not used to being genuinely loved. So I don’t want to get used to it, just incase someday you don’t want to anymore.