Was it everything you wanted to find?

Its crazy how girly I can be when I’m not in my work...

Wed, 24 Apr 2013 23:09:41 -0400

Its crazy how girly I can be when I’m not in my work uniform #selfie

Confidence is key

Tue, 23 Apr 2013 22:44:40 -0400

Confidence is key

andiwontletgo: I wish I was strong enough to walk away. I know he’d be so much happier without me...

Sat, 20 Apr 2013 01:58:45 -0400

andiwontletgo:

I wish I was strong enough to walk away. I know he’d be so much happier without me but I can’t let him go.. I completely suck

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Fri, 19 Apr 2013 12:42:46 -0400

Sitting on my ex boyfriends bed crying because my life has literally gone to shit. There is no point...

Fri, 19 Apr 2013 11:25:52 -0400

Sitting on my ex boyfriends bed crying because my life has literally gone to shit. There is no point to living anymore.. Seriously.

I don’t know if it would be worse for me to just give up on him completely or keep trying. If...

Fri, 19 Apr 2013 11:10:14 -0400

I don’t know if it would be worse for me to just give up on him completely or keep trying. If I give up, I’ll lose the only person I ever truly loved and needed. And if I keep trying I’ll have to sit back and watch that person find someone else to love.

I fucking hate myself.

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Fri, 19 Apr 2013 11:00:10 -0400

It’s not that I don’t love you, because I do. It’s not that I don’t want to...

Thu, 18 Apr 2013 22:35:38 -0400

It’s not that I don’t love you, because I do. It’s not that I don’t want to be with you, because I definitely do. The problem is, I’m not used to being treated the way I’m supposed to be and I’m not used to being genuinely loved. So I don’t want to get used to it, just incase someday you don’t want to anymore.

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Thu, 18 Apr 2013 22:33:44 -0400

takemehome-countryroadss: sicamarie: amen Bless this post so...

Thu, 18 Apr 2013 20:42:28 -0400

takemehome-countryroadss:

sicamarie:

amen

Bless this post so hard

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Thu, 18 Apr 2013 02:41:42 -0400

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Thu, 18 Apr 2013 02:41:25 -0400

Mason got the same bowl as me in a different color and...

Thu, 18 Apr 2013 02:38:24 -0400

Mason got the same bowl as me in a different color and didn’t even mean to. Weeeeeird coincidence.

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Thu, 18 Apr 2013 02:36:24 -0400

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Thu, 18 Apr 2013 02:31:53 -0400

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Thu, 18 Apr 2013 02:30:49 -0400

Maybe I'm the problem.

Thu, 18 Apr 2013 02:26:34 -0400

I’ve been crying to myself every night now. It used to be once in awhile, or if I had a rough night, but now it’s literally every night and I can’t help it.

It physically hurts to be as depressed as I am. It hurts to breathe, to move, and all I ever want to do is sleep and never wake up. I used to be so happy and everyone called me “carefree” but now I’m faking all of these smiles.

I hate myself for leaving Mason. I knew I was in love with him, I just thought I could do so much better because that’s what everyone told me. That’s what I was pressured into thinking. But it’s never worth it because I feel sick now. I’m lost.

And I hate myself for breaking Jakes heart. He’s my best friend and it should have stayed that way. Because we never had that connection that I made up in my head. I love him, but that’s not enough for me to be happy.

Maybe I’m the problem though. I have issues, I always have. I do need help but I’m too ashamed to admit it to anyone or actually get it. I would rather deal with all the disgusting thoughts and threats I say to myself. Sometimes it’s hard to deal with though. There’s been too many times that I’m on the edge of making a decision I shouldn’t make, and the only person who can talk me out of it is Mason. Which he does, and I wake up the next morning thanking God that he did…but what happens when he doesn’t? When he’s sleeping and all these thoughts come to mind? If his phone is dead and I can’t call him balling my eyes out? I’d be dead.

I’m so scared. I can’t do this..

lmfaooooooo you're so ugly you need plastic surgery

Mon, 15 Apr 2013 00:39:31 -0400

I’ve had plenty of plastic surgery, and lmfaoooooo if you think I’m ugly then look in the mirror. Just because you have money doesn’t mean you’re pretty, bitch.

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Mon, 15 Apr 2013 00:33:42 -0400

Fuck you fuck you. Just love me

Thu, 11 Apr 2013 21:10:35 -0400

Fuck you fuck you. Just love me